Sooo Tired

Just really tired today. I had a ton of Ebay auctions going between me and my mother and they either ended last night or tonight. Ebay is just sooo much work sometimes. It doesn't help that I sold a 60 lb subwoofer and I've got to get it packed in a box to ship overnight and at the present I don't have a box. Ughhhh.
Mike and I also had headaches from the time we woke up today. So beautiful day but both of us were just trying to get the kids to let us nap. I feel so bad that we didn't really do more with the kids today. What will their childhood memories be? Mommy and Daddy lying around while they play by themselves in the house? Hopefully they forget these times, I wish I would. I always carry a lot of guilt. Not necessarily from something I did but things I didn't do.
To top off the day I was doing my last (3rd) load of laundry for the night (I have lots more to do tomorrow) and the washer starts making a horrendous noise on the spin cycle. Great! Bought a top of the line washer/dryer after we got married so it's almost 6 years old. I just hate spending the money for that kind of stuff when we never spend any money on ourselves. When you think of all the things you could have had with that money: a pedicure, massage, clothes,......Of course I hardly ever spend money on myself anyway but I think that I would if I didn't have to spend it on this now. That's how my mind works.